I'm counting down the days until travel...Yeah! To keep from going crazy with waiting, my little man has emotionally been put into a box in my brain. Then today a picture of a little boy's hands opened the box. McKenna has very girly hands, she long fingers ....very fragile. Tommy has mitts...very strong and chubby. What kind of hands will Ian Have?? All at once it hit me in 17 days we can touch for the first time. Hubby and I were discussing this adoption feels like FOREVER. It has only been 11 months from start to finish but good grief.....PAINFUL.
I have a confession to make.....my heart is about to burst. We received Travel Approval on my birthday, April 5th. First the travel date was April 29th the very next day it was changed to May 6th. My son has been waiting for 4yr and 10 months for his forever family but this small delay has kicked me in the gut. I have shut down the image of my son waiting and waiting is more than my heart can stand. Every few hours it hits me between the eyes, he is coming home to stay. At the Davis house, bed time is crazy with all the kisses and hugs. Ian has never had a Mom to tuck him into bed or hold him when his is afraid. I have been praying he will have peace and know that we are now his family.
The only cool thing about this wait......Rhonda is meeting me in China and traveling to his province. Rhonda is my cousin that is more like my sister. Her family has been living in Indonesia for the last few years. Just like a McLendon to have to go all the way to China to have dinner with family.